My hair is a mess

My hair is a mess, my mind is mush, my ideas don't work and I'm breaking down. 

Nothing works, everything is in the shadows.

Life goes on and on but I stad still. 

I'm tired. 

Tired as human can be. 

Maybe tomorrow.

Maybe never. 

I stand still. 

I won't move. 

So I won't die. 

Neither I can not live. 

'Cause I stand still.

I'm lost. 

I'm lost. 

Don't know how many times I have been lost. 

But I am again lost. 

I don't need help. 

I will just stay the same way that I has always been. 

Thank you. 

There is light somewhere. 

I hope my light is shining on someone who is sweet and nice. 

Someone who can appreciate it. 

Someone who values my light. 

Even tought it is borrowed. 

And I will take it back. 

Enjoy now. 

All that I ask is enjoy. 

Autumn lazyness

I guess I have been hanging a lot more on Tumblr lately and haven't been posting anything in this blog. I think I have run out of things to say. I don't want to write about nothing. I really like to post about things I really have something to say about. And since the Autumn came I have been faceing the Autumn blue. It is pretty common here in Finland, because the lack of light. 

Autumn is the time of the year when it rains here. And almost all the time the sky is grey. Though the trees are turning gold and red and yeallow and orange. Luckily there are days when the sun comes out and you can see all the colours on their rightfull magnificent glory. 

But yes, even I love Autumn more than any of the other seasons it makes me feel blue. And when I'm feeling blue I don't have the power to do anything at all. All I do is lay on the bed or sofa. I have a lot to do, but no the energy for it. See the problem? 

I should go to university's library, get new shorts for my dance class, get my nails done (at the moment I have the rock look... black all most gone) make some philosophy essays and what else? Get my self together I guess. 

Let's hope I can pull myself together and do the stuff! Wish me luck! 

Lot's of hugs to everyone out there! 

13 facts about me

Hey you! How are you? It has been a while since I wrote something. Things just have got a bit hectic lately. Open uni, trying to see friends, sorting my life and all that. And then I really haven't done anything, I just have been lieing on sofa watching teleision. But let's stop the chitchat and move to those 13 facts about me, shall we? 

1. I'm from Finland 
2. I love Autumn
3. I listen mostly old rock
4. I'm a bit crazy
5. I love bakeing
6. I have travelled to 14 different countries
7. I live by a lake
8. I love shoes
9. And cars
10. I am not a morning person by any means
11. I have danced jazz-dance 4 years now(started fifth now)
12. I would love to live in Scotland
13. Twitter is my life at the moment