My hair is a mess

My hair is a mess, my mind is mush, my ideas don't work and I'm breaking down. 

Nothing works, everything is in the shadows.

Life goes on and on but I stad still. 

I'm tired. 

Tired as human can be. 

Maybe tomorrow.

Maybe never. 

I stand still. 

I won't move. 

So I won't die. 

Neither I can not live. 

'Cause I stand still.

I'm lost. 

I'm lost. 

Don't know how many times I have been lost. 

But I am again lost. 

I don't need help. 

I will just stay the same way that I has always been. 

Thank you. 

There is light somewhere. 

I hope my light is shining on someone who is sweet and nice. 

Someone who can appreciate it. 

Someone who values my light. 

Even tought it is borrowed. 

And I will take it back. 

Enjoy now. 

All that I ask is enjoy. 

Would you?

Would you run away with me if I'd ask you to?

Would you hold my head when it's too heavy for me to carry?

Would you see my cry trough my smile?

Would you hold me close when I would try to run away from you 'cause I got scared? 

By the fact that you are there

By the fact that I care too much of your heart

By the fact that I don't see myself as a perfect for you

By the fact that I don't understand happines

Could you teach me to be happy?

Could you tell me every morning there is nothing to worry about?

Could you hate me silently when I act stuppid?

Could you then forgive me? 

I don't want to hurt you

I don't want to see you sad

I don't want to end up broken

I don't want to have you for only end up loseing you

Because of all that I choose to be alone

Because I see it is the most simple way

Beacause I am scared of love

Because we live in different placeses and times

-Liisa-